He has his first tooth...

I received a text message from Sarah about twenty minutes ago that said he has his first tooth!! Yippee...

Just as I feared...

I received notice today that Steve's estate is being sued. It is a wrongful death claim and they are looking for insurance proceeds to cover said claim. Just what I need to begin my weekend...

Zipping by...

Yes, that is what time does. It is hard to believe that Sarah and Nate have been married for a month now. Nate called and asked if I could watch Cash while he took Sarah out to dinner to celebrate. It was to be a surprise. Of course, I can't say no to being with my grandson! So we spent a couple of hours together at my house. He knew something was up pretty quick and was not a happy camper. But mostly it was due to his teeth. It is bad enough that he won't even eat his favorite crackers because it hurts when he bites down, poor baby. He ate dinner and then we watched "Jungle Book" while he played on the couch. All I got to do was make sure he didn't take a header off the couch and wipe up drool off the leather upholstery. Sheesh...

ETA: I also have the song "Bare Necessities" stuck in my brain...

Today and 23 years ago...

Today would have been the start of twenty-three years of wedded bliss but that changed on April 1st. So today I celebrate that wonderous event alone. He was my best friend, my confidant, my lover and my life. No one will ever replace him in my heart or soul. So today begins a different chapter in my married life. One where I have to acknowledge the many things I have been doing on auto-pilot since Steve passed away. I will no longer have him to help me make decisions that are crucial in our lives. I will make those decisions alone now hoping that they are what he would have done. Looking at these photos makes me realize that the last twenty-two years literally flew by. How young we looked when we were married and yet we weren't. He was 26 and I was 32. Lisa had turned eight the month before and a mere year later her sister Sarah would be born. It wasn't our original plan to have children right away but God saw to it that it happened for us anyway. We were truly blessed with our little family...

Wireless...

I am in wireless network hell. I keep losing my network connection. One minute the wireless network is there and the next it isn't. Gee...

Yea, it's Oregon weather...

They are saying 92 degrees today and possibly 99 tomorrow. You would never know that three nights ago it was cool enough to put an extra blanket on to sleep. Geez...

Good News: I heard from the Oregon State Insurance Commission this morning. The gal informed me that the insurance company was paying on Steve's AD&D insurance policy. Thank goodness all 'this' insurance stuff is over. Now all I have to do is deal with the plane insurance.

ETA: Also on the news front; the preliminary NTSB report is out on the accident. Just stated facts like witness accounts and radar recordings, no findings yet.

Is this August???

I woke up this morning and the house temp was 68 degrees! What is up with that? Oh well, off to start my day...

Today

Started out as usual. Showered, ran to get coffee and went to Sarah's for my babysitting stint with Mr. Cash. He was a little fussy today. He appeared to be out of sorts, not wanting to eat much, drink his bottle let alone sleep either. And that is weird since both Sarah and Nate said he has been having some difficulty sleeping the last couple of nights. His forehead and hands seemed a bit warmer than usual. I hope he isn't coming down with anything. Here is one of my all time favorite photos of Steve and Cash.

I have the next couple of days off from babysitting so I am going to meet some friends for lunch and then head out to Independence to the scrapbook store there.

My afternoon turned kind of blue for me. I have been thinking an awful lot about Steve. I miss him so much...

ETA: This is what I think my sleeping problem is caused by. Here it is 3AM and though I went to bed late I am wide awake now.

Rain in August, yep it's Oregon...

Yes, it is raining!!! It started sprinkling when Sarah, Nate, Cash and I went to dinner. It has become "rain" not showers as the weather person first said it would do this afternoon. It wasn't supposed to start till after eleven this evening but that didn't happen either. I am not complaining as it has gotten very dusty around here and this will put an end to that even if for a short time. Taking care of Cash in the mornings has been loads of fun, despite the poopy diapers. He is just the sweetest baby. I wish his grandpa Steve were here to enjoy how much fun he has become...

1st Anniversary...

On Saturday Lisa and Buck celebrated their 'one' year anniversary. They went to breakfast, then to do some wine tasting at the place where they got married and just hang out. That weekend was sandwiched between two business trips that Lisa had to do for Columbia. She was in Vacaville, CA last week and is in Marysville, WA this week. I took these pictures out in front of their house on Saturday. She had wanted Kristi, her wedding photograper, to take pictures of her in her cleats with her dress on but had forgotten to take the cleats with her to the vineyard the day they got married. So I took the photos instead this past Saturday. She is my softball 'princess'...

Exhausted...

I am not a young person anymore. I only watch Cash for approximately four hours a day and part of that time he is napping but I am still exhausted when I get home. How can anyone so little tire someone out so quickly?? It sounds like I am complaining but seriously I am not. He is a very good baby and only fusses when he is hungry, tired or his gums hurt him. The dog is more of a nuisance than little Cash...

My mini meltdowns...

If I knew what triggered them I would avoid those situations at all cost. But it is never the same thing that causes them. His shampoo in the shower, his razor (where he left it), his conceal carry vest hanging on the back of his chair in his office, stepping into the garage or just looking at his picture. These things are so much a part of my life and I can't get rid of them. Just the thought of doing that sends me into a tailspin. So when my meltdowns happen I just have to ride them out. And when I am ready to remove some of my memories I will do so, but until then the meltdowns will continue to happen when I least expect it...

Dancing with his Aunt Lisa...

His grandpa would have been so proud to see Cash dancing with his Aunt Lisa. My guess is that Steve was there with Grandma Lucille watching over all the festivities and wishing the newlyweds a very happily ever after.

Could they possibly be any cuter??

A few more pictures for everyone to enjoy. The first photo was just after Nathan pronounced them Mr. and Mrs. Nathaniel Crawford. Can you tell they are super excited? The second photo was just before they cut the cake, did the toast and threw the garter.