Saturday, February 25, 2012

It's another boy!

We got the news yesterday. Sarah and Nate are having another boy. I have to admit I was a little disappointed that it wasn't a girl but it only lasted a few moments. I have to say that I am getting excited now.

Sarah has asked me to sew some crib sheets for her because the ones she had found online that she really liked were $40! So I can hardly wait till we go shopping for fabric. Bright colors are what she wants so hopefully we will find something that she will like.

As for my urge to buy or make pink things that might still get fulfilled because my niece Katy is due in June. They have decided to wait till the birth to find out what they are having so I still have hope.

This summer it will be berries and babies for the Fordyce's...

Saturday, February 4, 2012

I cried...

Nonstop for literally two hours this evening. Everything I seemed to do today or wanted to do I found myself wishing I could ask Steve's opinion on. These last couple of months have been particularly hard. When I first moved into my new house I found solace in his picture that I have sitting on the fireplace. But lately it is all I can do to look at it without falling to pieces and I feel so completely alone. I know that I am struggling with depression on a different level because of the old house and the knowledge that my mom's dementia is getting worse. I should go see the doctor but I have been avoiding it for a variety of reasons that aren't really good ones. I just need Steve to put his arms around me and tell me he that he will make everything okay.