Pirates can be cute!!!

I'm right, aren't I?? Cash in his very first Halloween costume...

Twelve years...

It is so hard to believe that it has been twelve years since my father-in-law Bob passed away. I can still hear his voice when he would knock on the door and call out "hello". Why is it I can hear his after all this time and I can't remember Steve's? My dear sweet mother-in-law Norma, I am thinking of you and sending you big giant hugs...

Started out good...

The day started out good, if you call cleaning house and doing laundry good, but it has deteriorated quickly. I have been in a constant state of tears for the last hour. I miss my Steven so much...

The price...

I had a full day yesterday and was extremely exhausted when I got home. I held out as long as possible before going to bed because I knew if I didn't I would wake in the middle of the night and be wide awake. Sure enough I am wide awake and it is 2AM. I succumbed to sleep somewhere around ten and now what I was sure would happen has. I have read the paper, read a magazine and am now resorting to surfing the web, damn...

Recovering...

I spent the weekend at the coast (Lincoln City) with some very special ladies. We ate yummy food and drinks. Watched girl flicks and scrapbooked into the wee hours of the morning. I didn't have as productive a weekend as I had hoped. I think I left my creativeness at home! But it was fun anyway. Lots of pictures were taken mostly in fun because they sure as heck weren't flattering. We laughed at times so hard we had tears. It is just what girlfriends should do...

A blue moment...

One of Steve's closest friends, Kelly posted a picture of his plane on Facebook. It was stating what looked to be the obvious, that his annual was going to take a bit longer, the engine was not on the plane. It took a moment for me to see that in the background was the back half of 6931D, the plane Steve co-owned with two other pilots when he learned to fly. It took my breath away and I then I had to cry...

Lots of things...and Cash is taking steps.

So much has happened since April and all of them aren't bad. I am teaching more classes at the store, Steve's friends Garrett and Amanda became parents last Friday to Ian, Raymond has added on to his farmers market, Lisa took a new job with Columbia, Sarah got married and Cash turned ten months on the 21st of last month. Yes, there was the wrongful death lawsuit issue and the fact that the insurance company has been dragging their feet to pay off on the policy but those issues appear to be solved since I hired an attorney to push things along.

I have myself a new point and shoot camera for taking photos of Cash but I have to get a card reader to download them to my computer. I can print off the printer in most cases but this card is too small to fit in any of the slots, of course.

And this little cutie is taking steps. Of course, when he realizes it he tries to grab onto something and if that isn't possible he just plops down on his butt. He is so funny.

Cut and color...

It was just what I needed to give me a morale boost. I had my hairdresser give me a weave of two colors, a shade lighter than mine and a dark blond shade. It gave it just the right look. I wasn't looking to cover my gray just give my hair a little lift, so I still have a little showing. I don't know how Cash is going to like this as he seemed to be a bit attached to my gray hair. He wouldn't pull it, just grab and look. I am guessing since no one at his house has any yet, it was a novelty. Baby sat him on Wednesday for quite a bit of time and we had a blast. I had planned on going to Target and getting a small stroller to put in my trunk but he was having so much fun playing that I just passed on the trip. He finally went down for a late nap at around 4PM just about an hour before his mommy got home. And goodness that boy is getting tall! At this rate he will be taller than his grandma by the time he gets into first grade. Gee...

Sitting in Steve's office...

Looking at a photo of him and wishing I could ask him "what the hell is all this stuff"? I need to get this room cleaned out and I haven't a clue where to start. The piles of magazines is the easy part. But there are the electronics and aviation catalogs that I don't know if they are worth anything. There are also a variety of computers most of them working and I only need one. Many of these are really old; an Amiga, a Kaypro (he had in college), a Fujitsu laptop and another tower sitting next to the one I am keeping. Lots of miscellaneous computer/engineering stuff and books everywhere. I think I am going to have to email some pilot and engineer buddies for some tips or help. Damn...

Testing, testing, testing...

I am really missing this guy. He fixed things around the house, worked on our cars when he had time or the inclination, fixed my computers when I had trouble with them and gave the greatest hugs on earth. And I miss him like crazy. But I am going to figure this problem out or I am going to beat this computer to death if I can't make it work!!!

ETA: I fixed it, yea for me!!!

Missing him...

The days like this make me think of Steve. The weather starts out crappy (foggy) and he would contemplate going into work later so he could fly. But Oregon weather never co-operates with pilots, so more often then not he got into his car and drove the sixty plus miles to work. He hated it especially when the fog would clear and turn out beautiful like today.

ETA: Still can't post pictures. It is frustrating me but I won't let it win. I will fix this!!

Another milestone...

The months seem to fly by at times and it is hard to believe that my "beloved" Steve has been gone for six months. How much more can you miss a person? I mean really, you hear of people having heartaches when referring to love but it can mean so many things depending on the situation...

ETA: I have been trying for a several days now to publish this post with a picture but for some reason it won't let me. It has something to do with my Adobe download. Damn.